Geesh..who was i back then??

No ones life is perfect and mine is no exception but i learned something to day while i was cleaning out my twitter account. i was down right miserable for the past 4 years.

Sure i have my problems with my health, mainly physical stuff but what i got rid of on my twitter page was lots of complaints about how my life was. i guess its true that hindsight is 20/20 because now i wonder why no one smacked me over the head to wake me up or just tell me to stop bitching about everything.

Life is what you make it and i was letting myself make me a miserable person to be around. i did have a lot of stresses in my life but thats no excuse. Even now i could say my life is the worst its ever been, but i wont. Sure, im an unowned slave at this point and that causes me to get frustrated and lose my path but im alive, i have friends and family that loves me and even if that fails i have the unconditional love of my dogs, thats something that will NEVER be taken from me.

i think back then i was so busy with doctors, meds, and new diagnoses that always failed that maybe i was just purely frustrated. Now i know what i need to, i dont take the meds, so my head is clear and i havent seen a doctor in a few months.  Its scary what that combination did to my head. Heck one of my fibromyalgia medications caused to to almost get diagnosed as being Bi-polar...then once i went off the med and showed them who i really was they changed that idea rather quickly..

i hate taking meds, even over the counter ones i dont like taking unless i need to, which admittedly on most days i do need tylenol to keep my body moving but hey, that beats narcotics any day.

Maybe my crankiness was the constant pressure to stop smoking...sorry, i smoke..cigs only but i enjoy it. i dont want to give it up. Heres my theory, you have to die from something, for me it will either be breast cancer or lung cancer at this point, but either way, if i have my cigs and regular breast play ill still die happy right!!!!

Any whoo Life is what you make it and im not making mine miserable again...so now im dancing off with happy thoughts in my head and a bounce in my step!!