My fibromyalgia fight

i was diagnosed with fibromyalgia 4 years ago. It started out that i was injured at work and have herniated discs from the work injury, which sparked fibromyalgia to occur. This disorder has caused me to feel like im losing my mind at times and makes me feel very useless. here are some of the symptoms

Pain all over
Fatigue
Sleep difficulties
Brain fog
Morning stiffness
Muscle knots, cramping, weakness
Digestive disorders
Headaches/migraines
Balance problems
Itchy/burning skin

This is NOT a complete list as along with it is vertigo, depression, IBS and memory issues. All of which i deal with on a daily basis.

i run into people who say " well why cant you get a job" or " you could work if you really wanted to". im not a lazy person by any means and wish i could work and hold down a full time or even part time job but how can a preson hold down a job in which i may be able to be there for 4 days then on the 5th day be in soo much pain or soo exhausted that i cant even get out of bed.

i used to run and program CNC machines, drive a forklift and operate an overhead crane. A very physical job. Now im doing good if i can manage to stand long enough to groom one of my dogs with the trimmers and finish it in one day.

This stuff is my curse, i hate it, and meds only make it worse for me. i try and take cymbalta on my bad days but that only leads to fibro fog which makes me miserable.

i have discovered that by cutting out some artificial sweeteners has helped and im in the process of cutting out nightshades from my diet which includes tomato, potatoes and eggplant.  Going gluten free is also supposed to help. im seriously considering living off of my protein shakes and fresh vegis only as it will not only cause to me lose weight but it will cut out all the things im not supposed to have.

Someday i hope my life returns to normal, until that day i will keep pushing on and dealing with life day by day.