Its so complicated for me. im one of those gals who gives with everything she has yet is awkward when it comes to sharing her true feelings with anyone unless she is angry.
When im happy or something good has happened i dont usually say anything. Same for how i am with others. No matter how much i may want to say or do something within my heart my head stops me always wondering if what im going to do will make me look stupid or silly.
Maybe i worry too much about what others think of me but at one point i had a decent circle of friends who actually cared what was going on in my life. Now there are few but those who do care mean a great deal to me, especially at this point when im feeling soo out of sorts with my emotions and such.
It is the full moon phase however so i know that i cant depend on my thoughts, emotions or physical reactions to things to be accurate but i should say that this is the kindest full moon ive felt yet as usually im extremely cranky, in tons of pain and exhausted and this time around i actually got things accomplished...its amazing
Ugh, i sat out to write this big entry and lost my train of thought so ill end it here and finish it in another entry if the words and ideas come back to me.
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