Well, i took a big step today. i went to my old town for the first time since leaving there. i did spent the entire time looking over my shoulder and on guard as i was scared to death of running into people i didnt want to see but i did it!!!
It actually wore me out and im very glad to be back home now.
Other than that i havent been up to too much, not if you are looking from the outside anyway. However on the inside, in my mind i have a million things going on, thoughts and questions all spinning around. Plans being organized in my head, and trying to figure out how to regain myself without looking crazy.
Its tough not being understood and living around vanillas. i dont think anyone understands one thing i do or why i do it. Its not their place to and they dont put me down for it but it does get odd sometimes and i dont care for that part yet i cant give up who i am either just as they cant give up who they are nor would i ask them to.
Soo, im trying to get back on track, NO, im going to get back on track and stay on track this time. i have to, its the only way i can move forward and i have so much already set up and started so this is just more of the process. i took too long to do this in ways yet at the same time i guess that i did need time to heal.
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