i have such a fun colorful life sometimes...i love waking up at night shaking because i was just dreaming of being chased by someone trying to kill me, or waking up startled because in a dream i got to see a little more of what happened on one particular day when my step dad molested me...
So many things have shaped who i am, and for a while i let those things define me...Not anymore. Im 34 and falling apart physically and the other issues are small in comparison to what i deal with on a daily basis as far as pain. Actually being realistic part of my physical pain is due to some of the other issues as without quality sleep my body suffers and i know that. Its a delicate balance which must be made.
Oh, heres a funny thing, i tried to meditate lastnight...do you have any idea how tough that is to do with a little poodle sitting on your head??? Its tough, i didnt make much progress...but i did get snuggles so im not complaining, i prefer those over meditation anytime.
Either the news needs to pick up, i need to get more creative or something... why is it that lately there is nothing good to write about??? Nothing good in the news. i know i do need to work on the few band reviews that i started but its hard to when you dont get answers to any of your questions you send them. i wont make up stuff just to fill room, thats just not me. Its actual facts, opinion and information from the band or nothing bets written. im not going to just make the whole thing about what i think there needs to be some facts in it, or at least thats how i prefer to do it.
Still contemplating what to do with my book, keep working on it...stop working on it...put it on here little by little to let the world to read...
im also considering starting to write short stories to put on here along with some poems. im not real great at poetry but sometimes i come up with something that i like to write.
Soo many things to figure out...i know ill choose whats right for me but if your reading this and have a suggestion one way or the other please feel free to speak up.
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